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Daughter of the King of Kings, wife, mom, friend, and bookworm. I am so glad you are here! I hope you’ll stick around and enjoy reading these blog posts.
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God Bends Down to Listen
“I love the Lord because he hears my voice and my prayer for mercy. Because he bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath!” Psalm 116:2, NLT
After a few minutes, we came back to look at the pregnancy test. “Oh my!” I gasped. “There are two lines!!” Jonathan and I hugged and rejoiced because two lines meant we were expecting our second child.
We started praying for our baby right away. Would we have another girl or a boy this time? How close in age would our kids be? I wonder what the due date will be?
A few days later we announced on Facebook that we were pregnant. It was so exciting to tell all our friends and family the big news.
The following Saturday morning, I woke up and was bleeding. My husband Jonathan was at an early morning meeting. To say I felt scared would be an understatement. I rested as much as I could and prayed a lot. My heart was breaking as the blood flowed.
The bleeding continued throughout the day. On Sunday, the midwife met us at the office and did an ultrasound. There was no heartbeat. No baby. The miscarriage was confirmed.
I entered into a very dark season. I was literally down on the floor because the pain was so deep. It didn’t make sense. I prayed so hard for the pregnancy to continue full term. And my prayers weren’t answered.
I wanted to be holding our baby in my arms in a few months. Not announcing to our family and friends that we miscarried.
God bends down
Through this season, God taught me many truths about Himself. First, every single prayer that I uttered and every tear that fell, God was right there. He heard my voice.
Secondly, the Holy Spirit reminded me that God leans close. In our key verse for today, we read, “Because he bends down to listen” What a beautiful picture!
During the hard season of miscarriage, I felt the Lord lean in close. Even though I was angry, wrestled with doubts of God’s goodness, and had a hard time praising God, He leaned close.
God didn’t leave my side. He strengthened me when I didn’t feel like I could take another step.
One more truth the Holy Spirit reminded of in this season was that God cares. After we miscarried our baby, God grieved with me. He gave me the strength to continue to care for our 1-year-old daughter. God healed my body and my heart.
God continues to care every day as I remember our baby. When the baby’s original due date comes around every year, God comforts my heart.
Every year on the anniversary of the day we miscarried, God carries me close to His heart and continues to comfort me.
What struggle is heavy on your heart? God knows exactly what you are facing. And He cares very deeply. Invite God to bend down to listen about your struggle. Let God comfort and encourage you as He leans in close.
Friend, God cares about every detail. Every. Single. One. Cry out to God in prayer today. And trust that He is in control.